*its;her life.

(:

god's child
she's bless
Hear ma prayer, Lord,
listen to ma cry fer mercy.
In da day of ma troubles i will call to you,
fer you will answer me.
no deeds can compare wid yours.
Heavenly father, i thank you fer all dat you've done.
we're all livin in a sea of superficial relationships.

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Monday, October 31, 2005

weeeee! im back back back!! :)

oh anyways..i'm too;lazy and busy to blog.
classmates are gettin seemingly interestin.. somehow, im likin ma class more each dayyy.. funny ppl! thankin God fer dat. (: b4 tat jas had a fall on her sweet18th birthday/evilgrinz*keei, everyone saw her and was laughing badly la,darren juz couldn't kept his mouth close!~haaha!
of course i kept laughing too!.hafiz juz so poor thing la.jas kept kicking and punching him*laugh.

went escape to play yest, pretty cool, wif aud,jas and my bro!
haaaaha, we juz had so much fun tier, best of it, entrance FREE! haaaa.
X) kill me la, im jus damn happy now. thankz adam* fer ya spin. ((= *grinz. dun let u smack u again!. tis time its gonna b worst!*warning.LOL

despite dere are things dat makes me sad.

damn. happy banana :)LOL
tues going malaysia!. wif bishan,mayb other classmates,so delighted la,both of us got our pay!!! thurs goin shopping wif bishan again!then, heading to wong's house fer HariRaya! ohhhh.. so glad.!thankz bishan,jingling,jiaxin and eliane fer ya belated birthday gifts~muAkz.
i'll be leaving town soon!.WEEEeeeee, 5-14 ppl,miss me! ((= haaha.

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jus dun like it when ppl dun practise wad they preach.

you tell othas their flaws when you have them youself? yea i mentioned "dun like", not dat i cant accept yourrr critics. im not such intolerable person.

sometimes ppl jus have to think wad they've gotta say.

or maybe, its jus human nature. but i'm alwaes refrainin maself from tellin othas in da face abt this; cuz eventually i'll bcome one of them. and..

DATS WHY IM BLOGGIN! >.<

"only if you're gd enuf, if not say nth."

u finally realised there were cracks.. but dat lil u know.. was dogmatic.
-ppl can treat wad i've blogged jus about as bullshit or words to you dat makesnosense. but ultimately, ma motive is to let ppl ponderrr.. "dun carry an expensive brain wid you la.."-
*FAINTS.

i will miss yr spasticness. bro, do tk care of yourself in NS.

you've broke dat bottle-full of trust; and built a wall btwn us..
ma heart jus ached like nv before.

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Friday, October 21, 2005

freak lahs. im sick and tired of this.

if you wan othas to treat you well, den treat othas well!
if you wan respect, den give othas da respect!

and..
IF YOU DUN WAN PPL TO COPY YOU, DEN STOP COPYIN OTHAS.

get it, morons? like wad i alwaes say, style is abt being different and how well you carry it.

judge yerself before judgin othas.
i have eyes to see fer maself alrites.bodos'

***
went out wid chantel and yuan in de afternoon,
okays, i admit i spent $$ again, i bought a new laptop!. ahaa,acer* preety good, juz so inlove wif it lah.
and guess wat?!!
swing swing seeeeee saw and ma so called 'flings'. LOL. (;
fun! shall update again!

jaaaaa mata! {:

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Wednesday, October 19, 2005

its hard seein me feelin me emotional in ma entries. often its alwaes things dat're makin ppl laugh, or prolly jus some daily happenins, some precious memories..
somethin diff today? heh.
`i've undergone numerous introspection.. den i will ask; is it not possible fer a guy and a gurl to remain frens even though one dun like de otha party?
its actually a saddenin thing, really. wid frens playin such important role in ma life.. once a gd fren, once ma confidant, ma support, walkin outta picture jus like dat.
`nonetheless, i wanna be single. until i meet *him ; da man God has predestined me to be with. (:
ma God is a miraculous one, da one who hears ma prayers, da one who noes me inside out, da one who noes who's da best fer me. have faith.. Lord, lemme not lose sight of you, hold me tightly.

"its really time fer you to grow up. i had enuf of your clonin-in-progress. i feel terrible talkin to you."
oh im sucha saddist. opps.
i pondered about many things fer da past few days, or maybe i've alwaes been like dat. hah. though im alwaes seen as a happy-go-lucky gurl. but i guess anyone who truly noes me noe dat im a deep thinker. thinkin abt da many things in life. da past, present, future.. one of which is always how God had led me thru.. and da optimism i have towards life. i've nv allowed maself to stagger in self-pity even though, in ppl's eyes, there are copious reasons fer me to do so.

God has been great to me all these while. sometimes i really wonder why i get all da drive and strength despite da constant pressure being exerted on me. family. friends. politics. its not alwaes things dat affect me, but relations. dats why i din mention about studies, or even money.
some things have passed fer so long. yet now, when i come to think abt them again, its like somethin dat had jus happened to me yesterday.
da realism, da palpability..

uncanny.

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Monday, October 17, 2005

guess my sweet 18 is ruin,had my dinner at jack's place wif mum,dad and bro.

alright,they're going fer divorce tml, i would rem this birthday dinner.
oh nvm. :} livin wid ma dad is a real torture at times i must say. hes alwaes right la. he's foreva DAT smart. yea rite smartie pants. for all i noe, ppl like him merely see a fake side of ma dad, dats all!

**i've forgiven him already.i guess he's really sorry.. about wad he'd done. nonetheless, i stil hope and pray dat he'll come back one day. da grief brought upon, da torment, everythin dat has happened, stil din change da fact dat he IS ma dad. i am angry wid you no longer, i hate you no more.i'll prolly miss him. i'm unsure if you really cared about me from da bottom of yer heart, but i wish you'll be doin fine and without us.

thanks fer raisin sucha stubborn daughter like me.
anybody could juz lent me ya shoulder?.
fell flat on bed rite afta wash-up. ):

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Sunday, October 16, 2005

so at ard 12+, while doin ma journal.. received all da birthday sms-es. da feelin was so sweet! (:

shugs*_* its 16oct,and WHOLE island is raining like cats and dogs.WTF mann.
firstly,HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!guys listen up, i'm offically 18 okie! no more a kid!keei.!
i should hav spent my afternoon at sentosa wif them, but it rain.! arghhhh..in the end, watching vcd. ):
met gfs in the evening,had dinner at PS swensens.
`ting; u bibos, u even work on my birthday!*stamps feet*
`yuan; u're late, so pathatic of u uh?.u wore a white SHOE! oh gosh, i was juz surprise la.haaha.
`chantel; hahaha. yes 1st time celebratin ma bday!!haaha.you betta come out with us da nex time after yr `O's.
thankz gfs fer e taka gift. (:
`jas;would i ever forget you. i think you're da one who forgot all about us when you have a gf! (:
`ping&yun; waiting fer our escape trip on sat!not forgetting my pressie! haha,thanks fer your LOVE.
alright,i'm damm shag now,nuttin comes inside me,such a cold weather, can anyone juz hug me!!-__-

not forgettin many others who wished me a happy birthday thru sms-es, handshakes! i really am so touched by ALL OF YOU! some may have forgot about ma birthday, but its okay! its jus a birthday..
ppl like charles, elson, kor would prolly have to feel guilty! lol. (:
so dats pretty much wrapped up ma day. thanks fer everythin ppl. (:

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Saturday, October 15, 2005

http://www.tattong.com/free/ <--- check tis out!. enjoy this music,its beautiful.
alright, todae rawks big time man. we were damn funny and all of us enjoyed it. got lots of pressie from them. i'm loving all.but i think i'll get diabeties soon. chocs and candies. kill me la. but soft candies ARE nice though. yea. (x
hah. earlier durin da day, adam stil msg-ed me and remind me to burn da music into a cd and bring along. WHICH I TOT WAS SO REDUNDANT. and now, i feel so retarded.
well, adam were sayin dat i sound so poor thing when i mention about im not excited about ma birthday.well, actually, its jus dat im NOT excited. not cuz i think dat ppl wont celebrate fer me. i was merely askin WHO mah. zz. /:
`adam-u flirtatious asss, hahah. you stupong. im not a girl with everythin lah! im jus a contented girl with God. (: thanks fer your LOVE k. *lovess
`al-vin; *sunshine headshakes* hahaha. yes 3nd time celebratin ma bday!! *forever da sunshine sher.!* (:
`junyong; eh! ah dai wannabe. hahahha. you're so retarded like duno wad lor. i jus love luffin togetha with you. your laughta is so damn contagious la! lol. thankz fer ya loving demium skirt and all (:
`jen; u rawks bcuz i gotta noe you. thanks fer all de countless effort in alwaes wantin to cheer me up. somehow, i'd feel betta if you yourself could stand up from where you fall.. life isnt a bed of roses, but we're da decision makers of our own life. be wise. (: *lovess
`alan;u mastermind!i feel like slappin you fer so many "lub euu"s written on da present!! you dumb asssss. haaha*grinz.i was so irritated by u dat i stuffed a whole spoonful of icecream into yr big mouth when i was gettin ready to leave da place. -___-"but jen said u took advantage and tried to touch ma hand instead!*piang.
`con; ahaha. you smelly. your compliements also nv fail to make ma day. you're jus so funnehh lah. wont ever forget da lift incident. *slaps forehead*thankz fer ya treat!will miss all your crapiness!
`jason; i lost track of how our friendship actually came to how it is today, thanks fer ya*iloveyou* msg anywae.
`jeff; okay, i duno where u came from. but who cares as long as you're in ma heart?and your poor princess me, is missin out all her paternal love. hahaha. tk good care of yourself in army hor! (: aye thanks fer everythin todae.ilike every gift of yrs.!
`jodin; hahaha. you dumb bear with no neck! now got golden arrowana hor! happy fer you lah.but dun u eva forget me!~_~lol.
`ron; ma dearest, ahh! i miss you lah.so glad u were there, words jus cant express how i feel towards this special frenship dat blossomed in sucha special way! (: though we seldom meetup, but somehow, i noe you'll alwaes be there fer me if i ever need you! i do hope dat is vice-versa! love you to bits too. heh.thanks fer ya choker and those cool handwear,i'mlovingall*
`linggie; hello! yes ma kichad. we've overcomed all odds. and yes, im touched. i wanted so much to hug all of you tooo. but.. er. haha. U*smacks my butt*blush*haaha!
now let me personally thank these ppl who caredd..all the pressie i recieved todae, i loveee all of you!
`zhixian; i still miss u as b4. (:

looking forward on my actual 18th birthday tml!.
gfS, i simply miss u girls.*wriggles*
mummy will be back from overseas tonight,*grinz.
i miss u mom!.

i'mbusy wif - let me name them`mic`aud`shiyi`
shhhhh.. let me blog first, laugh.
thanks guys~after somuch we've been though u girls juz rock my life in ite.
not forgetting beloved bishan,jas,soul sis*jiaxin,jingling,lane,not forgetting kayne.
ihave so much love ard me.thank god fer tat.

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Friday, October 14, 2005

birthday. fer da first time, im not gettin excited over it. whyyy. WHO WHO WHO will celebrate wid me! ): well,juz recieve a msg from mic,make myself free at 6 tml,will b seeing me at 7?!. oh manns, wondering wat are they up too? ;( wanna drown me in pool?. nah,against the law,which is so impossible, laUgh.

girlfriends? admirers? (HAHAH. im jokin about da last one mentioned. i dun have any.)

): make me more excited lehhh, can?

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Wednesday, October 12, 2005

are ite frens meant to be superficial? *shrugs.

i dun mean you cant find real frens in ite though. jus dat some frens whom you thought gets along very well wif you might not be hangin ard you fer very long.

toshite? /:

prolly cuz you always meet new frens along da way; many acquaintances, but few ppl whom i really call frens.

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