*its;her life.

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god's child
she's bless
Hear ma prayer, Lord,
listen to ma cry fer mercy.
In da day of ma troubles i will call to you,
fer you will answer me.
no deeds can compare wid yours.
Heavenly father, i thank you fer all dat you've done.
we're all livin in a sea of superficial relationships.

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Friday, April 08, 2011

sometimes i'm wondering what going thru in us... should i? or should i not?

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Monday, June 29, 2009

Today, me and Baybee went to pay our first cash payment at the asile boutique $1700!.
a big sum thou.. before this day, we had a bigg quarrel, i didnt thought he could be to harsh towards me. and i public, my impression of him from the start is totally ruin.. why has he became like this after he came back from his reservice.
i'm sad..so devasted. and now crying in sorrow

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Saturday, December 02, 2006

love is a commitment. not a feeling. like is what you call a feeling. when you have feelings for that special someone, you like him, not love. when the feelings fade and you no longer experience the fuzz and butterflies..yet you go on caring for him, perhaps that's when love comes into the picture. love is when you commit yourself to him.you first like a person, before you try to love him. so it starts with a feeling, and continues with a commitment.but, feelings can be so complicating and hard to phantom. at least it is the case for my feelings.no matter how things change, some things will always remain unchanged

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Sometimes LIFE just seems so tiring right? Having to go through each day with thoughts revolving around in your head. Somethings made life too much a burden to carry. Some people just get on my nerves. I am not saying I don't am perfect here alright. It's just that the people whom you thought were closest to you tend to let you down most. People whom you thought you had understood most just seem to change overnight. Be it better or worse. Maybe I am just not receptive to changes. I just cannot accept or come to terms with the way some acts. It's just not the people whom you know anymore. The feeling is different. It feels as if you are so close yet so far away from them. You yearn to talk to them. To sustain this shaky relation. But hey,it takes two hands to clap right? What more can one do when they are left out? Everyone has their own pride. You can't expect one to always swallow their pride and tag along behind. Tell me what's the purpose of having friends if one has to go through all this. It isn't fun at all to be left out. I assure you that you will not want to find yourself in the same shoes. And I can tell you this for sure, the feeling is undesirable. It feels as if you have sink into darkness all of a sudden; void of understanding and so on. One might not know that his gestures had just hurt someone unknowingly. The pain does not cause a scar physically. It is inflicted deep down inside where one is the most vulnerable. The bonds between people are so abstract ... so easily broken and trampled over. How amazing it is. The thing that actually does not exist physically actually can affect us so much. Isn't it unusual? Trust between friends is misplaced. Respect all lost. Promises stand no more. Mutual understanding is all forgotten. It makes one shudder just to think about that. Its just depressing to think that the day will come that best friends yesterday are of no more. I am trying to figure out this thing. Frankly speaking I feel that the problem isn't that complex. Trash things out and be done with it. However, it will have to be done candidly. Don't want to look back on my life with regrets ; Regrets that I lost something just because of my ego. That's why I always don't find it necessary to get fired up over minor matters with people. You can say that I am laid back with not a care in the world. Who cares? What matters is that you know that whatever happens in the future, you will look back with a smile. A smile that holds meaning beyond words.

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Sunday, June 25, 2006

learn to be contented.

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Friday, June 23, 2006

I meant to blog last night, don't want to get my hopes too high though, it's worst to feel disappointed... when I actually mean what I say, and I probably would have typed with more passion, but I was just too tired, emotionally, physically to do anything other than have a relatively quiet night and go to bed.

now, go to bed..

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Thursday, June 22, 2006

pride is at once the most powerful and most dangerous weapon a person can ever have. i struggle with it, we all do.

if i ever matter so much to u, would u even care if i was gone? it has struck me that the reason why i fought not to miss u. even if i dont stand chance. get this straight, i dont care what you take away from me anymore, because i dont need your presence.
im not gonna be amazing, but at least, hopefully, decent enough to run away from class after bullying him =) and i realized, that when i'm are running, those muscles that burn when you are walking stop hurting, thats the solution eh.

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

shalala....

juz accompanied him fer dinner. =))
heehe. i know it's just a dinner lah.
But.. ok, i am contented. his smile. awesome.
oh well i really wish life is always happy.
like ALWAYS HAPPY.
we have to be aware that not all that is happening is what it seems to be.

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